Pretty soon, they'll be a new person featuring on the blog from time to time as I introduce a new person to my life on a more permanent basis. Back in January, after five years of being single, kissing frogs or even toads and imagining me becoming a cat lady, I was asked out by someone I accidentally fell for.
The subject is a little bit tricky, and I hope for his sake my brother's not reading this post, you may be wondering why and don't worry I will tell you. I'm going out with my brother's friend.
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| My Superman. |
That might be something really, really small to so many of you, but to my brother, and even to me, it's really big and it's something you just don't do. However, we can't help who we fall for, and even my brother can't deny that his friend brings out the happiness and best of me.
I've been so strong and independent for so many long years, yes I missed cuddles and talking to another adult, sharing the love within my heart, but honestly, I enjoyed the years of me being single. The longer my single years went on, the more determined I was to not ever get in another relationship.
It's hard when you got children, I worry about Spud feeling like something has changed between me and him, that he won't be mummy's number one any more, or that I wouldn't love him no more. I know it's crazy, but I'm a worrier, and a massive one at that.
Spud has always and will always be my number one, he will come before any one, and I mean any one for the rest of my life. It's always been me and him, well it was me, him and his dad until he was three years old, but ever since, it's just been the two of us, comfortably living and getting on great.
I'm taking things with the new partner slowly, it's been a long time since I loved someone that isn't family or a close friend. I've got walls as high as the sky surrounding me and I'm slowly getting use to the idea of letting them down.
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| Our first photo together. |
He makes me happy, he makes me smile, he makes me feel special and lot's more. It's true what they say when they say you can't help who you fall for, and I know it only too well. None of this was meant to happen, but it has.
My brother received a visit from his friend face to face to tell him the 'news' after my brother started speculating more and more in regards to who was behind my recent bout of never ending happiness. He said it's going to take a while to get use too, and I can completely understand that.
For now, I'm taking things day by day and enjoying the moment.
Never let someone else ruin your happiness!
Until next time,
Jada xx
