Wednesday 11 January 2017

What I Left Behind In 2016

It's crazy to think that we're in our second week of the new year already, I feel like we'll be back at Christmas before I know it, and new years eve plans will be getting finalised, in reality I have 11 months before I need to think about such, but time goes so quickly, 11 months feel much more like four months.

I didn't really have any new years resolutions this year, I do have a few goals both blog goals and personal goals, otherwise there was nothing really on the agenda. I'm trying to take one step at a time, and don't think I need a new year to change life.

In 2017, I'm living life differently.

I have a new mind set, a head full of ideas as usual, but a new way of looking at things.

In 2016, I left some things behind and I thought it would be good to write about them to remind myself if I ever need too.

Friends: I ditched and was ditched by some friends in 2016, there was no reason given but I kind of knew why. People seem to think that when you get into a relationship if your routine changes its because of your new partner, however they don't think it's because you need to include your partner into your life. Gareth has never once controlled me, but apparently he has because I've decided I've wanted to spend the night in with him instead of a night out at a club - boring!

Feeling Put Out: I can't say how many times I was put out in 2016, but what I do know is 2017 will be completely different. There was so many times in 2016 that I was asked a number of favours from friends, the majority of them being could I look after their children. Whilst I love children, I just don't have the time to baby sit like I did years ago, plus my life has changed and it's not as easy to look after friends children anymore. 

Back when I lived at the flat, things were entirely different. For example, I didn't have to worry about stairs, I didn't have to worry about babies/small children getting up the stairs and I didn't have to worry about babies/small children falling down the stairs, everything was on one floor and there wasn't a worry. Here at the house, I have stairs, and I'm not being funny but why should I install stair gates for baby sitting purposes when my own child is 10 years old?

Another reason why it's different here at the house to when I lived at the flat is Jezeppi - our dog, back at the flat I didn't have Jezeppi so I didn't have to worry about a baby/small children and Jezeppi. Whilst I trust Jezeppi - I don't entirely trust any dog 100% and I'm sure all good dog owners would agree. Whilst we know our dogs and their temperaments better than anyone else, we can't truly say they'll never have a turn and injure someone.

So baby sitting at the house is a lot harder as I have to worry about the front door being opened - leading onto a road, whereas at the flat - the front door opened onto a communal hallway, at the flat I didn't have to worry about small humans climbing the stairs and the potential risk of them falling down them, nor did I have to worry about a dog and small children together. Going a wee when babysitting soon become impossible!

Then there was the fact that I felt like friends didn't respect I had a relationship and my own child. I may seem to have a relaxing working life to outsiders, but believe me my job is stressful too, on the rare chance I have a day/night/weekend off, I want to be able to spend it with Spud, Jezeppi and/or Gareth, I don't want to be baby sitting other people's children all the time.

Negative Thinking: I am one of the worse people for thinking negative, my dad is always telling me to calm down and to stop worrying, yet for years I've been the same negative thinker that I was the year before. This year, I want to try and think positive instead of negative, and if the latter arises I'm going to try and be firm to push that feeling away!

Like I mentioned previously I do have some personal and blog goals I'd like to complete, but for the meantime nothing is set in stone. I hope to be able to share these with you shortly, and hopefully they'll be goals I'm able to reach!

Jada x


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